As We Approach the Memories Blessed mother I know you carry the memory Of the reality of tomorrow’s world In your sacred womb. Lying close under your heart. Connected  by cord and thought. Today. Sensitive to the world The lights the cold the wind the chill the warmth inside the womb. Challenged by moments, minutes, hours, Days, time. Challenged by thoughts of closure, end…continuing Continuously. Change. Whirling Change. To be ONE with the journey To be present in the moment To be able to dream Of the future. To succumb to the journey To give in to the moments To lose the dream Of this future. Tumbling through the confusion of memories Retrievable memory…never to be owned again As your legitimate dreams….only fantasy. Forever scarred. Blessed mother, I hear you calling from the darkness of the scared and the scarred and sacred Scared Scarred Sacred Womb. Dreams altered. Reality disturbed Nature destroyed Nature destroyed Destroyed I hear you calling Your shouting of memory torn with joy of dreams once held. Wretched with the dull dark tones of agony. Pains too great to feel. Joy lost in the depths of pain Sobs too low to hear Anguish Human anguish Confusion I hear the silence. The spaces of silence. I hear the silence. I hear you call as you rise up Your rising up from the darkness Reclaiming Owning Opening Reclaiming That which is sacred That which is scarred All that is Yours Healing                                       -Bonnie W. Cowan Great websites for cesarean healing, cesarean prevention, psychological recovery, and VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) resources: International Cesarean Awareness Network Birthcut:  A Resource for the Art  of Post-Cesarean Living